friends.wad do they mean to me?without them,i seriously cant live.and until today,i feel like i'm dying in sch alr.i cant confide in anyone.i cant share anything with anybody.all i'm thinking is,can i trust them?they've backstabbed other ppl,how can i noe they'll not backstab me?nowadays,frens are hard to make,no matter how enthu i am.good frens or best frens,are even worse.everyday i cant be myself.i'll be thinking,if i do this,will they still be my fren,or will they find me irritating and just hate me?i'm just living in that constant fear,of being alone.should i change myself so that they'll like me more,or should they change?if i change,will it be for the better,or for the worse?if they change,who noes wad will happen?i hope,ppl will treat me as a good fren,rather than just a stranger that you just say hi to once in a while.i really really wish that my wish for a best fren in sch will come true.they say that sec sch frens are the ones you keep for life.so far,i'm not really understanding them.sometimes,it's just so hard to smile,let alone laugh.i really really hope ppl will start to see you,not for their bad points,but for their good points.i really really wish for that.truely from the bottom of my heart.then things wont be so complicated anymore,rite?haiz...